I Feel Good -- A Tender Mercy

I woke up this morning and can I say -- this is the best I have felt since I went into surgery almost 3 months ago!  I shouldn't write this, I am probably jinxing myself, but I can't believe how good it feels to feel good!  Thanks to my awesome nurse Lisa and good antibiotics I think I am starting to heal.

I am so grateful especially today because Cam's baptism is tonight and I wanted it to be something where I was putting on a fake smile and fighting back tears.  If I start chemo on Monday I doubt I'll feel like this again for a while -- but I will take it -- especially today!

Cameron asked me the other morning at breakfast (our deep talk times) if I would ever be a silly mom again and talk in a weird voice to annoy Lauren and stuff like that.  I assured him that eventually I would, and feeling like this gives me hope that when this whole thing is over I really could feel at least mostly like the old me again someday!